Sooo, today I freaked out a little inside. I absolutely cannot believe how fast 2015 went. I say “went” because it’s already DECEMBER (in an hour 1/2)! What. The. Eff?
It has almost been a full year since I decided to quit my job and make some big life changes. In the last year, I have moved SIX times. From my Minneapolis apartment, to my sister’s house in Victoria, MN, to mother-frickin-Peru, back to my sister’s, in with the CSH (CO Springs heartbreaker), into a ghetto-fabulous-one-bedroom with no amenities, and finally into an awesome house (little dog named Tipsy included) in the Denver ‘burbs.
Throughout all of that, I didn’t even break any leases!! Impressive, huh?? 🙂
Of course, it was an insanely wonderful yoga class today that made me want to write a blog post reflecting on this year. 2015 has truly been a whirlwind, despite all of the yoga and getting-in-da-present. Time moves SO fast, no matter how much yoga and meditation you do!
Reflecting on this year, I can think of a lot of successes and “not successes,” a.k.a. learning experiences. I feel like listing some of them will help me sleep better tonight.
Here are Some Successes From this Year:
I showed myself that it’s OKAY to do something scary and get out of your comfort zone. I quit my job, and I survived/figured it out (at least for now). And the most amazing part was receiving messages from friends -some that I haven’t talked to in years- saying I inspired them in some way. Making connections like that was priceless!! ❤
Somehow, I managed to complete 13 weeks of CorePower Yoga teacher training, and now have my 200 hour certification (+ 50 hours of an extra course called Extensions at CPY)!! It was challenging, and I wanted to quit many times… but completing it was the best feeling ever. That mini-journey was something I’ll remember forever.
I successfully moved across the country, and actually kept myself afloat financially (barely, thanks to all the yoga shiz, but still a success because I’m here!!)
Between Peru, the Yoga Teacher Training, my Colorado Springs waitressing job, my Denver recruiting job, and my new Burb neighborhood… I’ve met so many AMAZING people in the last year. New lifelong friends, even. 🙂
I found out I CAN make a difference in a community, if I put my mind to it, by raising lots of dolla-bills for my favorite little school in Peru!!! *Mic drop* (Side note: For the 50th time, Thank You to everyone who donated while I was there. I still talk with Pati frequently, and they’re all doing great. I miss them so freaking much.)
I had the privilege of introducing yoga to a friend who told me it changed her life. I took her to her first class, and the next week she lost her job due to a workforce reduction she had no idea was coming… She recently told me doing yoga helped her turn what could have been a really tough time into something POSITIVE. Hearing that made me so happy, and made me remember why I want to continue with it forever 😉
And, the “Not” Successes:
….Along with the good things, 2015 has been FULL of rejections. “Learning Experiences,” if you will!
When I didn’t get the job that I interviewed for in Peru (and would have gotten to be there for 18 months)… that was a very sad day.
When I first moved to Colorado and was looking for “any ol’ job to pay the bills until I figure out what I’m doing next”, it was actually pretty tough and demoralizing. Seriously, never try finding a waitressing job in early June. I heard “We just hired 5 new waitresses for summer, sorry!” a lot before I actually found a job.
Dealing with dem heartbreakerz. You know, people who break other innocent and unsuspecting victims’ hearts. I have broken a couple too (I am sorry, if any of you are reading this), but needless to say, rejection always hurts! Dating nowadays comes with a lot of rejectING and getting rejectED, that’s for sure (between all the left and right swipes, ha!)
When I got rejected by the first yoga studio I auditioned at (which, by the way, was a horrifyingly scary and awkward experience), and was told that I need to “spend more time practicing yoga in the South Denver community first.” (Basically, I need to DO more yoga before I teach it! They had a very valid point.) 🙂
Accepting a recruiting position in a brand new industry/company/market and experiencing rejection by a TON of people. Yes… full disclosure, I have cried a couple times because of this job. This is nothing like my old sales job… Recruiting (especially for high turnover, revolving-door positions) is brutal!! But, I have learned a TON just in a couple months of doing it… and, I’m helping find nurses for people in need which feels good!
This blog post… is pretty repetitive…and doesn’t feel like a success. I’ll try to think of a better one and redeem myself eventually. 🙂
Okay, I think that’s enough for me to sleep a little better tonight.
If you are still reading this, thank you for being interested in my world… I highly recommend having zero expectations for these things (OMG, I have a post about that!)… Writing is just a fun and therapeutic brain download, than anything.
Oh, and here’s a song that randomly came on tonight in my car after yoga, that just seemed PERFECT for life at the moment. 🙂
Positive Mind – The Expendables
sit back take a rest take a breath from your gut not your chest and realize that youre OK feel the air in your lungs slowing down the rapid thump of stress in your heart tomorrow is a new day look around at your room at the things that you consume do you really care if it all just burned away; burned away
a positive mind, a positive mind can rule all of mankind its convenient to be blind when we’re all a bit alike and the hustle has you following the wrong signs a positive mind, a positive mind
from the slums you can arise feel your spirit deep inside move and shake excited is the energy to understand that life is grand and exists larger than your hand is the key to responsibility so look back at your room what it is it tellin you is it really there to make you feel at ease; feel at ease
a positive mind, a positive mind can rule all of mankind its convenient to be blind when we’re all a bit alike and the hustle has you following the wrong signs a positive mind, a positive mind
Positivity through responsibility (start living by your own design) Positivity through responsibility (start living by your own design) Positivity through responsibility (start living by your own design) Positivity through responsibility (start living by your own design)
exhale and expel all the negativity within yourself you own what you are worth and its been with you since birth so let it be it don’t matter what the others see so burn up that messy room its meaning less and less to survive with nothing left can make you truly free; truly free
a positive mind, a positive mind can rule all of mankind its convenient to be blind when we’re all a bit alike and the hustle has you following the wrong signs a positive mind, a positive mind!
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